Follow Your Heart

God is a gracious God. He is a man that loved us before we were even born. He is a man that gave us life, and died for our sins so that we may spend eternity with him. He created us for his Glory, not for ours. To think that we can take credit for anything we do on this earth, is absolute insanity. When we give, it is not us that gives, it is God. As my husband tells our kids, we are only the hands that does the work that God lays before us, it is God that gets the glory. It is through Gods word, and Gods guidance that we are placed in the right place at the right time. It is our job to follow our heart, to do what God is leading us to do. However, understand he doesn't need you, but he chose you to be the hands that gives, he chose you to be the mouth that speaks the word in which he created long before we ever existed. Strip yourself of your pride. Lay your heart before God daily. Ask him to open your eyes, to see the needs around you. Ask him to give you the heart and the ability to do the job that he has set before you.
Do not walk away, do not take the easy way out. One day you may be the person sitting in a house with no electric, and two little kids to feed and no food in the cabinets, and you won't be able to. It is then, only when you are in desperate need, that you can truly understand all of the needs you have walked away from in your life. When your kids are hungry, and you have turned to person after person, including who you thought were Christ followers, yet their heart wasn't following God and they kept on walking. Does that remind you of any story you have heard of in the bible?
So why the title, "Follow Your Heart"? That's where my daughter comes in. Today she wore a shirt that read "Follow Your Heart". As I read her shirt, it reminded me of her heart, and things God had laid upon heart. The things she chose to listen to, the lives that have been changed, because my daughter chose to follow the call that God had laid upon her heart. You can't have the excuse of, I don't have enough money to help, or I don't have the time, or I don't know anyone in need.
My daughter came home, her heart broken, because she knew a little girl that was in need. So God began to open doors to help this need before us, and my daughter wanted to help. She went to her room and gathered up some good toys in which she wanted to give. She brought them to me, and out of my ignorance, I said to her," someone is going to buy her new toys, you don't have to give her your old one." She went to her room and cried. God then began to speak to me. See, she was following her heart, and what she felt was the right thing to do. She wanted to be able to help in any way that a 7 year old possibly could. So, I began to cry as God began to break my heart, and said it's not about money, it's about the willingness to Give, and your daughter is willing to give in any way she can.
My daughter will be the first to tell you, we do not allow people to think that it is because of anything we do, that actually helps. But it is Christ that is taking care of them, it is Christ that gives, and we want people to go to Christ and not us. My daughter has taught me the unselfishness of giving, and that if God can use a 7 year old to realize the needs of people around her, he can use anyone. Sometimes it's about being willing to simply share what we already have at our home. When you have nothing, anything is a blessing. People with nothing, are more blessed with our used somethings, than we are to receive something new.
Ask God daily to open your eyes and your heart to see the needs around you. Ask God daily to give you the willingness, to simply share with others, the things that you are abundantly blessed in. Follow your heart daily, and leave your pride at the door. Keep it between you and God. If you allow yourself to brag, you will begin to think it is something you did, and forget that only Christ should receive all glory.

My last words to my parents and brothers.

First I want to thank God for blessing us with another day. My family is in the kitchen right now, cooking breakfast for dinner. (Zach's Favorite, and mine)and the first meal my husband made for me was breakfast, scrambled eggs with canadian bacon and cheese. Zach and Abby are fussing as usual. :) But they love each other. My wonderful husband is cooking while the kids do dishes. I worked so hard today, and they are trying to give mommy a break. I love my family. They are the best. We have so much fun together. It's making me cry just to sit and listen to them work in the kitchen. Maybe my hubby will give me a foot rub later. What a great way to end a long day. I hope my last day isn't any time soon, because this is the best possible life God could have given me here on earth. I can't imagine how much greater these moments would seem, if I was dying. Every moment would be magnified times ten.
Now to my parents, my mom, what a Godly woman she is.I don't know what I would have done without her. She is a great mom, with a big heart. She loves and cares for my kids almost as much as I do. I know she loves my husband as if he were her own son. We are a team in which we call upon each other whenever needed. I'm there for her, she is there for me. I would say to bury me in one of those crocheted blankets you have made for us, but I want my kids and my husband to cuddle up with them when I'm gone. I want them to be passed down to my grand kids. I want them wrapped around my future grand baby's. I know each one of them were made with love. Mom, I love you, tell my kids and Matt all of the stories you can remember about me. Look at pictures with them, and you will never really have to live without me, because you know I live within all of them.
My dad, I am definitely a Daddy's Girl. I know you are the person in which I could always rely upon. I love you Daddy. Thank you for being a Christian Daddy and great papa. My kids get all of their nuttiness from you, and you know that. You love to joke around with them. I remember you always spoiled us a little more when we were sick. It always required a trip to the store, and you would bring back some Sprite, some chicken noodle soup, and maybe even some chocolate. You still do that sometimes even though I'm 35. My dream was to one day have an old car that my daddy worked on just for me. But I know if you did it for me, 2 more would have to be built for my brother's. Thanks for teaching me to forgive, and that family is always important no matter what stupid things they do. You proved that over and over again, that our mistakes, although they disappointed you, never changed your love for us, or your willingness to help us. I could say the same about mom, you both are awesome parents, and I know that you pray for all of us. Thanks for being a Dad to Matt. You are the only Dad he is had for the last 9 years, and it means a lot to him.
To Danny, My older over protective brother. I love you more than I could ever show. I know that life has been rough. Get back to your roots. We can have 3 jobs to help us pay the bills, and we can work and do our best. But you will never life will never be what it can be, until you get back to church. You never lose your salvation, but you will be miserable if you are not close to God. Let him be the leader of you life. Find a way to spend time with all of those wonderful kids in your life. You know they pray for you, and they would love nothing more than to see their daddy back in church. I know how it feels to be the kid that prays for their family to get in church. Only you, can answer that prayer for your kids. The key to a good marriage, and being a good daddy, is being a good son to your heavenly father. I'm not sure how time has passed so quickly, but it has. I love you big brother. Even when I'm at the end of 10 people you are jumping over with your bike. I would do anything in the world for you or Dave.
To Dave, My little 6'5" brother. what I said to Danny goes for you as well. You will never be happy in this life, until you find happiness in Christ. He needs to be first in your life above all else. You know this, it is not new. You can't lose your salvation, it is yours for all eternity, I know that is not what were taught, but that is how i read it in God's word. That doesn't mean you don't go to church, or dont't read or pray. I remember when you were 15 and you read your bible every night. Your life changed when your walk with God changed. He never left you, and he never will. Lead those kids to church, I want to see them in heaven with you some day, and you are responsible for taking them to church and teaching them the word or God. I love you, despite the fact you think I act to much like your mom and not like a sister. I'm just trying to look out for my little brother. Even when he frogs you on the arm, right on a muscle, to where you can't move it for a week.
Ok, that wonderful dinner my family made, is now waiting for me on the table. Zach has been talking to Matt non stop the entire time they are cooking in the kitchen. I know he is loving every bit of it. Tomorrow, the last words for my nieces and nephews. I love you all. Now, I'm going to have family time.

God Bless
Love Always Angie,

My Last Words Continued.........

So why now you ask? What brings up these last words I want to share? We just ended a sermon series called The Last Message. It really made me think, I need to share my last words because we have not promise of tomorrow. I want to share them with everyone, because in the event I do die, I need my friends and family to be family for my husband and my kids. I need them to remind them of these very words that I shared with you.
When I die, I will need my church family more than I have ever needed them before. Melissa Hendrix, my daughter Abby will need someone to be there to teach her about those girl events in her life. She will need a Godly woman to teach her how to be a Godly woman. She will need you to teach her how to cook, and sew, and how to be good wife, and a good mother. I need you to be there in every big event in her life, and remind her how much her mommy wishes she could be there.

Eric, my husband will need more TV time, and hiking trips, and guy stuff to get his mind off his sorrows.

Shane, Matt will need you now more than ever. He will need you to be the that friend that lives close by who will call him up and keep him in check. He will need your love and support.

Ryan, this is when I need to know that you will call him and check on him as often as possible. I love this man, and I would do anything to wipe away his hurt, but I won't be able to. You are his best friend, promise me that your friendship will be stronger than ever before. Promise me that you will be here to sit beside him on this day.

To my Fuel Cell Family, I need you. I need you to care for my family. Help my husband and my kids. Strengthen them in prayer and love. Eric, if Matt is overwhelmed with emotion, I need you to be able to talk to Zach and love him and help him through this time. I know that Matt will be strong, but they will need all of you to make it through.

I will rely more upon my church family when I am gone, than I do now. I need to know that I am in a place that will stand beside my family. That will hug them, and call them, and drop by and visit them. Promise me, you will do that for me.

Doc, Matt really looks up to you. Your friendship means so much to him. I know that you will look after him when I am gone.

I am glad that God has placed us in a church full of people that I know will love my family. I am so blessed to be surrounded by so many special people. I love my church. You guys are the best.

Love In Christ
Angie Duke

My Last Words.....

I've often wondered what my last day would be like. How old will I be? Will I have lived long enough to see my kids graduate, get married, and have kids of their own? What will people whisper on my funeral day? Will they say that I was a gossip, will they say that I helped others, will they say I was a good mom and good wife, will they know my love for Christ? I could go on and on. I've sat in many funerals, some were saved and some were not. For those who were not, I'm not sure who had the most regret. Was it the one who no longer had a chance to receive Christ in their life, or was it me. What did I not say? What could I have done differently to have changed this day.
If I died today, at age 35. I would be survived by my husband and the love of my life, Matthew Duke, my son Zachary Duke age 9, daughter Abby Duke age 7, my parents, Ray and Sandy Erwin, my brother Danny Erwin and his wife Jamie and their kids, Shanea, Chris, Michael, Danielle, Lucas, Cain, Abel, and Shay. My brother David Erwin, and his kids Coleton and Taylnn, My brother-in-law Chuck Duke and his wife Kelly, and their kids Adam, and Katie, My mother-in-law Lelah Duke, and many Aunts,Uncles, Cousins, friends and co-workers, My Fuel Cell Family, Melissa and Eric Hendrix, Mike and Melissa Schoeppey and their kids Amber and Isaac.
To my husband, Matt, God knew what he was doing when he placed you in my life. I made so many wrong decisions until I finally made the right one. You have been an amazing husband and father. You have provided a wonderful home for our family. We have had a good life together. No one will ever know, understand, or love me the way you do. I know that our marriage hasn't always been perfect, but our love for each other and the forgiveness in our hearts pulled us through those times and now we are closer than we have ever been before. I know that when I am gone, it will be hard on you and the kids. But you are the spiritual leader in our home. You will need to cling to Christ, and not drown in your sorrows. Our kids need you, they need your leadership, they need your love, and they need your strength. It is OK to mourn, but it is not OK to let mourning overtake your life. I know you will never forget me, and I know there will never be a love greater than ours, but know that it is OK to go on, to find a Godly woman to stand beside you through the rest of this life. A woman that will be a mother to our kids, but will allow them to never forget their mom. Neither one of us ever want or desire for this to happen in our life. Always remember that as long as you have breath in your longs, there is work to be done for God. Stay in your quiet time, and your prayer time, and continue to do anything that God leads you to do.
To my son Zach, my first born. You stole my heart from day one. There is so much love inside of you and always has been since the day you were born. We cuddled so often, you would play with my hair, and want me or daddy to rock you in our arms. Even now at 9, I will be cooking dinner, or just sitting on the couch watching TV, and down the hallway you would come,just to tell me you love me and give me that ever so famous Zach Bear Hug. You know those are my favorites. Use that love to serve Christ, and to serve your wife some day. Be a good big brother to your sister, no matter how much we may be annoying, us little sisters look up to our big brothers. Be a Godly example to her, be strong for Daddy, he will need you. I'm sure there will be many hikes, and you will be able to remember the day you found my keys, or you would pull the branches back and allow mom to walk through. I'm sorry for any time that I ever yelled at you. I hope you know how much I love you, and I tried my best to raise you in the way God would want me to. Thanks for the love you have given me. Let your Daddy teach you how to be a good Godly husband. I promise, he knows what he's talking about it.
To my daughter Abby, my little me. We share so many stories, I'm sure you will relive more of my life as you grow up. You will always remember the scars on our foreheads, our broken arms, and lets not forget we were both born breach. I will always live inside your heart, I will be there on your wedding day, when you are putting on your dress and remember the day when you were 7 and we pulled my wedding dress out of the closet and your tried it on and modeled it for Daddy. You will remember when you are fixing your hair, and remember every morning that I fixed your hair before school, and when you paint your nails, you will remember our girl days. When your kids are driving you crazy and you sit and relax in a hot bubble bath in a candle lit bathroom, you will think of the days we had our special girl time. Never stop laughing, which is why you have those precious little varicous veins in your cheeks. Use your smiles to make a difference in other peoples lives. Never let a guy use you or take advantage of you. You are a beautiful girl who deserves the very best. A guy that will lead your home, provide for you and your family, and keep you faithful to God. He will tell you how beautiful you are, and make you feel like the only woman on the face of this earth. They do exist, i have one of those guys.
I love all of you so much. It is all three of you that has made my life the most wonderful life I could ever imagine having. Never, upon never, lose touch with each other. Never let distance pull you guys apart. Promise me to stay close together, to love each other, and to talk to each other often. Never let anything change that closeness. Stay in church, keep working for Christ and do all you can do. If dad ever remarries, love is wife, and allow her to be a part of your lives. Allow her to be a part of your kids lives. I know Daddy would never choose anyone, unless they loved you guys. But know in your hearts, that even if Daddy remarries, doesn't mean he has forgotten me or lost his love for me, he just doesn't want to be lonely when you guys are out of the house.
This is only part one of my last words. But they are the most important part of my life. So if tomorrow was my day, I would have at least wanted to share this with them. I love my family. I wished I had not wasted my life and made so many mistakes. But going forward, I promise to do better, to walk a better walk, and to show my love you to guys daily.

With All My Love
Angie
Sweet
Mom

In God We Trust

Have you ever had one of those days? One of those days when worry and doubt seem to over rule your trust in God. It's not hard to do. Let me tell it to you, pretty much the way the devil was telling me.
Car payment is due tomorrow, I have a new air conditioner under my carport that I need to pay about $300 to have it installed and the guy is suppose to come this week. I have a fear that the person who bought my car, may not be able to make their car payment to me, due to a misunderstanding on my behalf, oh, and this car payment was going to take care of my car payment due tomorrow. I take Zach to the dentist, and she comes out and says, he will definitely need to get braces. Of course my question is, How much will that cost? She says, About $5000.00. I have been having trouble with my eyes, I get headaches when I read or even do work on my computer. I need an eye exam and most likely glasses. It all sounds pretty bad, RIGHT? When someone is making it from paycheck to paycheck, one unexpected expense alone can hurt, but all of these at once, can really do some harm.
Matt was got home late tonight, so I mowed the yard. As I mowed, financial matters kept swimming through my head. I'm trying really hard to figure it all out. Now let me lay down the story the way God told it to me. Remember, I'm mowing, and God says, How much did you have to pay for that lawn mower you are using? Of course, I'm reminded that my lawn mower broke down, and he provided me a great lawn mower that cost me all of $0.00. (Thanks Mikey) I thought to myself, yeah God, you provided me with a lawn mower. Then he said, how much did you pay for that new air conditioning unit waiting to be installed, and once again the answer was $0.00. He went on to say, what about the dishwasher you use to wash dishes with everyday for the last year and a half, and once again $10. I thought, OK, OK, I get it, I have a need and you have provided, so why worry now.
I was feeling pretty good, how can you possibly not trust God after all of that. I took a shower, and started dinner, and my phone rang. It was God, in the form of my dad, saying, you know if you ever need anything all you have to do is call. My inner pride starts to well up within me, and I said I know but it will be OK. Really I have peace about it, and it's going to work out. He said, maybe that's God's way of taking care of you was having me call. I told my dad, I know you are always there. But I also know, I don't take advantage of my dad. I won't go to him, unless I honestly and truly feel like I can't take care of it on my own. I know he will be the first to tell you, that is a very rare occasion.
I really worried about calling this person about the money for the car payment. What if they needed the money, as much as I did? I don't want any weirdness between us. So I began to pray for them, and their finances and their needs. I tried to call them, and no one answered. I sat down at the kitchen table with my kids, and began their devotion time. I said tonight's devotion, is something God spoke to me about while I mowed the yard. I began to explain every detail of how God has blessed us and took care of us. Then we read Psalms 62:8 that read "Trust in the Lord in all things." My phone rang in the middle of my devotion, my car payment will be at my house tomorrow.
A year and half ago, my husband worked two jobs. He was gone every other weekend. We didn't get to spend much time together. We really felt that God was telling us that he needed to quit his second job. On paper, I couldn't make it work. As I sat down with my kids tonight, I thought to myself, it's been about 16 months since Matt worked two jobs. We still have our house, the utilities have never been turned off, our bills have been paid, and my husband never has to miss church, or time with his family. "Trust in the Lord in all Thing."
If we could sit down and figure everything out, and make sense of absolutely everything, we would never have to trust in the Lord. I am so thankful that my God is taking care of us. We are blessed far more than we deserve. I know that God isn't going to give me an air conditioner without a way to put it in, and I know that God is going to take care of my eye exam. I am so thankful for so many people that God has worked through to take care of my needs. So many times, it's not about how much money you can give someone, it's about how much of your time you are wiling to be Jesus to someone else.
I'm thankful for my Dad, for Mike Jr, Shane and Mary, my fuel cell family, and everyone who took time to be Jesus to me and my family, in whatever way I needed Jesus to show up that day. Use your talents and time for the Lord. It will make a great difference in the lives of others.
I'm thankful for a God that blessed me with what I needed, and even sent an extra blessing with things I may not have needed, but God knew what it meant it to me and blessed me with it anyway. Trust in the Lord In ALL Things.

Lucydog

About ten years ago, my husband and I drove pass the bank on Rogers Ave across from Wal-Mart. What did we see? A couple giving away dogs. They were the cutest little lab puppies you have ever seen. Matt and I had never had a dog as a couple, up until this point we had lived in an apartment. Just a few months before we got Lucydog, we had rented a house in Spiro. Well, that day would be the day that Matt and I got our first dog, as a married couple. We had only been married two years, and had just found out that we were expecting our first child.
We spoiled our dog rotten. If you have never had a lab puppy, they are very frisky little dogs. Lucydog dug many holes in the back yard, and chewed the trim on our rent house. But we never had to potty train her, she knew what to do from day one.
It was the funniest thing, one night it was storming outside. Lucydog has always been terrified of storms. I remember her standing at the front glass door, just waiting for the weather to ease up so she could go outside and pee. The weather did not ease up any time soon, and poor little Lucy could not stand it anymore. We opened the door and she ran out to the middle of the yard as fast as she could, she did her business and ran back in.
She has been a part of everything in our life. She has always been so good with our kids. They love her so much. But she is Daddy's baby. She would sit with him in his building when he worked in his shop, she knew who her master was. We have tons of memory's of our precious Lucydog. Abby used to ride on her back like a horse, when she barely able to walk. I can't tell you how many times our dog jumped into our kids swimming pool. She didn't like the rain, but she loved the swimming pool. One of her favorite things in the summer, my kids feeding her popsicles.
She has loved us, protected us, jumped on us, and played catch with us. But today we found out, her time with us is almost over. Our beloved Lucydog has cancer, and heart worms. She is getting tired, and we are living out Marley and Me in real life.
We picked the kids up from my moms, and we talked to them as we drove down the road. We explained that Lucydog was really sick and that there was nothing else we could do for her. we told them it was our job to just love on her and give her the best possible few days left that we could. My poor little Abby immediately burst into tears, in her own dramatic, yet very heartfelt way. She sometimes came home from school, went straight into Lucydogs pen and played with her. Zach had his face in between his knees, trying to be a tough little man, and not wanting us to see. He raised he little face and tears were rolling down his little face. Needless to say, there wasn't a dry eye in the truck. Their poor little hurts broke.
We went to Sonic, Lucydog, with us, and we even ordered a meal for Lucydog. The kids helped to pick out what she would eat. That really helped cheer them up. They thought it was funny that Lucydog was going to have Sonic food with us. They have hovered around her all evening, brushing her, hugging her, and praying for their dog. After all, they have had her their entire life.
Keep us in your prayers.

What have you given to Jesus?

What have you given to Jesus lately? Every evening we sit down with our kids at dinner and have devotion time and prayer. All of that is great, but devotion and prayer is not enough. What kind of life example's have you been to your kids, your friends, your spouse, or your family?
We have been asked to help to take care of Mrs Sue upon occasion. I am not patting myself on the back, by any means. One night we had left her house, and Matt turned to the kids, and said, "Do you know that we helped Jesus tonight?" The kids looked at him kind of funny, and said, "what do you mean?" That night devotion time happened on the way home. We explained to our kids why we help people and how the bible says that if you give someone a glass of water, it is like you give it to Jesus. So whenever we help anyone, it is as if we helped Jesus. It became real to me that night. Of course we have devotion time, but what am I doing to show my kids what it means to be Jesus to someone else. How often am I willing to give to Jesus, even when it's not convenient for me.
I am blessed to be a part of a church, who gives to Jesus daily. Just over the last few weeks alone, people have helped us with our vehicle, I sent out an email about needing to purchase a lawn mower, and within 24 hours, someone had brought a lawn mower to our house to borrow, someone else was helping us look for a lawn mower, and yet another person called to say we could borrow their mower until we bought one. Last week God brought to us a girl in need.
Once again I sent out an email about this girl in need of a job, and with a day, I had received 4 emails of possible job leads, one email just offering to be her friend and willing to hang out with her, and the Care Ministry provided her with some money to help her until she could find a job.
I can't say it enough, that if you are not in a fuel cell, get into one. It is not just a study time, it is time to get close to your church family. Our Fuel Cell is there for each other, we truly love and care for each other, in a way that I have never experienced before. If you need a room painted, your family is there, if you need prayer and support, your fuel cell family is there, if you need a babysitter, your fuel cell family is there. I can't tell you how much we lean upon each other, and genuinely care for one another. Once again, by example, we show the love of Christ to each other daily.
Honestly, I could go on and on, but I think you get my point. I want my kids to not only learn by devotion time, but to learn by example. Our church is full of examples of what it means to give to Jesus daily. I could name names, but I know these people well enough to know, they do not do things for recognition, they do it because of their love for Christ. I love my church, because my church loves Jesus.

Here comes the bride.........

October 8, 1988 a little girl was born. She was beautiful, and perfect in every way. She had beautiful brown hair, and tiny little fingers. If I remember correctly, she had a birth mark on the back her neck. A birth mark that my family claims as the "Erwin" mark. Many of our family members have the same birth mark on the back of their head just around the neck line. She was the first of six niece's and nephew's on my side of the family.
I was just a child myself when she was born. I was only 15 years old. I did not miss one part of the pregnancy. I was able to go to doctor's visits with her mom. In some small way, I was a part of that baby growing inside of her belly, at least as much as I could be. I was so excited. I remember the day she was born. We waited impatiently in the waiting room. My brother, who was only 18 at the time, I had never seen him so nervous. He was this skinny little kid, and I remember as he pulled open the doors to the maternity ward, he nearly passed out. Before we knew, this beautiful baby was born.
Her mom ended up having to stay in the hospital for 3 weeks. She had a high fever that would not break, and the doctor's could not figure out what was wrong. My dad loved her like a daughter, and he worried about her. So much, that I remember his little chat with the doctor's in the hallway, that he wanted to know what was wrong with her and they already wasted too much time figuring it out. By the time Sandy came home, she was back down to her normal size, as if she had never been pregnant.
My niece lived with us for a few short months. My heart became deeply attached to that precious little girl. More so than I ever could have imagined. I helped take care of her when Sandy was working, I helped her with over night feedings. I became very attached to this precious little baby.
I wish I could share with you everything I know about her life, but for me, that is all of the life I was blessed to know. Even though I may not have seen her first steps, or heard about her first day of school, I can't even tell you about her 16th birthday. But I remembered her everyday of my life. I prayed for her daily, and the love I have her lies deep within my heart. The circumstances that prevented me from knowing her, were not ones that a 15 year old girl could change. But no circumstance on earth, could change the love I have her. Nothing could ever stop me from praying for her, caring for her, and hoping that one day she will want to know this person that loves her so much.
Tonight, that baby girl became a woman. A woman that is now wife. Today was her wedding day. I can't believe that 20 years have gone by, and all I can share with you is her birth story. I had hoped to see her in her beautiful dress. This is her special day. I prayed for her today, I prayed that this day was everything she had ever dreamed of. I prayed that God has given her man that will love her, and cherish her, and make her feel as though she is the most important and most beautiful woman on the face of the earth. I may not have been there, but I thought of her all day today.
I opened up my facebook, and someone had posted a picture of her from tonight. She looked amazing. Her dress was strapless, simple, yet elegant. Her hair was beautiful, it looked as though she had a little curl on the sides. A tear began to roll down my face. I hate everyday that I miss another day of her life. As one tear fell, several more began to follow. I'm so happy for her. I wish she could know the love I have for her in my heart. I pray that she is blessed with a wonderful life. I will never give up. As my daughter has taught me this week, it just takes a little faith and little prayer. I will never give up on one day being a part of her very special life.

My Mini Twin

Well, my daughter broke her arm. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know. It's one of those things that just seems to happen. Well, what would you think if I told you how much my daughter and I are truly alike. We were both born breach, at the age of 2 we both busted our heads open on the corner of a table and had to get stitches, we both have beautiful matching scars on our foreheads, and now the broken wrist. I was five and she is now six, both of us with a broken left wrist. We have laughed about this, and my daughter and son are very amused by the story. Just remember, our kids walk in our shoes more than we will ever know. My son is nine, never had a stitch, or a broken bone. :) I'm thinking that he will follow in his daddy's shoes. At least he has my artistic ability. But he likes the same kind of things his daddy likes, he is almost a mirror image of his daddy. He is very particular about how he arranges the clothes in his dresser, the kind of shoes he wears, and takes interest in the same things his daddy does. It amazes me, that even without trying, our kids take on our characteristics and even some of our habits. So be careful what you do and what you say, because little eye's are always watching.

I Love My Church

A little over two years ago, I found myself hurt by church. I didn't want to go to church, I didn't want to pray or read my bible. Questions were encamped in my brain, is this what church is really suppose to be like? Should anyone ever feel not accepted at any church? I wore the right clothes, I rarely missed a service, I was actively involved in the church, I paid my tithes. Why did I feel so left out, and so disconnected from what was suppose to be God's people.
My friend once told me that her mom said to her, if you can't live close to family, find a good church where you live and they will be your family. I did not feel this way. I did not feel as though I was surrounded by family. When I think of family, I think of people that are going to love you no matter what. People that are there to help pick you up when you are down. People that can be your strength when you are weak. People that want to share life with you, laugh with you, cry with you, and pray with you.
I am reminded every March 31st, on my husbands birthday, of this low point in our life. No, not because it's my husbands birthday, but because it is also the same day that Shane and Mary's son passed away. It's been three years now, since little Nate passed away. I would love to say that I can tell you all of these wonderful stories about Nate, but truth is I had only met Nate once or twice. I do not think it is a coincidence that this happened on Matt's birthday, because it always stands as a reminder of where we were headed and where God has brought us to today.
You may be wondering what does Nate have to do with this story. As Shane and Mary know I can make a long story out of this, but I will try to give you the short version. Shane coached our son's t-ball team. We did not know Shane, honestly we did not know at first that he was a pastor. We knew he was a Christ follower, but was not your ordinary Pocola, OK pastor in a suit and tie. He was a normal Dad involved in his kid's lives. During the first weeks of t-ball practice, Nate got sick. In a very short period of time Nate was gone. Zach and Sammy were in class together, we offered to help get him to t-ball games and we began to watch a couple in the days and months to come, cope with the loss of their son. Matt and I were attending church, and had been attending the same church since the day we got married.
One reason we had never changed churches, we just didn't know of a place we really wanted to go to. Watching Shane and Mary over the course of the year after their sons loss, sparked something inside of me. I told my husband, I need to take our kids some where, so I'm going to take them to FBC on Sunday. The kids had attended VBS there and really liked it, so I thought we should try it. I came home energized, and constantly talking about the service and the people. Many of which are still with us at Fuel. They made me feel welcome from day one, and I knew that is where God wanted me to be. However, I am not the head of our home, luckily my spark, sparked something in my husband and together we went. I remember one Sunday Morning, we sat in service after a few short weeks, and my husband passed me a note that said, I am as sure that this is where we are suppose to be as I was sure about marrying you. We joined the church that day, and Mary hugged me afterwards and said, " I knew today was the day."
Every March 31st, I am reminded of the purpose of that little boys life. Every March 31st, I am reminded that God has placed us where we are suppose to be. We love our church. I have never experienced church in quite this way. People growing together in Fuel Cells, actually helping people through life, no matter what they have done or where they come from. This church is more my family, than anyone has ever been in my life. It is the love of Christ that flows through the people, that lifted me up when I was down.
God confirmed to us one night in Shane and Mary's living room, that we were to serve together with them, and that is what we are here to do. God once again reminded me, that we are here to serve and be whatever we need to be for our pastor's and for our church family. I love my church, and the love they show to me and my family daily.

I wish I could be there

I know I shouldn't be envious, but I am. All of the girls in my fuel cell have been bridal shopping with their sisters. Well, my niece is getting married next month. This is a wedding I have dreamed of. I have always wanted to be a part of this wedding. But I have not received an inviation or even a phone call or email. But my niece does not know me. It's a long story. Something I could never fix, something I could never change. But truly she does not know me. My heart desires to know her, to be a part of her life. But the truth is, she does not know me, and she is hurt by life far more than I can truly understand. So hurt, that she can not truly understand how much I truly love her and want to be a part of her life. But the truth is, this is her day. Not mine. I would do anything to be even a small part of it, but if me not being there makes it better day for her, then I would rather not be with her. Does that not make me think of her? Of course not. Anyone who knows me, knows my heart for her. It is not about me. I would do anything for her. Including not being at her wedding. As I listen to people who talk about Bride Zilla's. Understand that it is a blessing just to be a part of it. To be accepted, to be invited, to be able to dress shop and be a part of bridal showers. I would give anything for that right now. But my heart is for my niece and her happiness. If me not being there makes her day a little easier or a litter better, then it doesn't matter how much it hurts me. I pray that she has the most wonderful amazing day of her life. I pray that her marriage is one that lasts forever. I pray that she is happier than she has ever been. Be thankful for every part you get to play in a persons life. It is a blessing from God. Even if your part, is not being there. It may be really hard for me to understand, she doesn't know me, or to understand a hurt that is so deep in her heart. I would do anything to change that for her. I would do anything to change the last 20 years. But I can't. I couldn't change it then, and I couldn't change it now. Sometimes, other people have to pay the consequences for other people's actions. But, I will always love her, I will always hold her close to my heart. It is not her fault that she doesn't know me. I will love her forever, and pray for her forever. If that is the only role I play in her life, that is OK.

Melted.........

I know it's been a while since I have blogged. It was a funny kind of day for me. I came home from work and Matt picked up the kids. He came through the door fussing with Abby. Up until today, Abby had decided she did not want to go to the Winter Ball at school. But she had spent the day talking to friends, her friends were going and they had practiced their silly dances at school today during recess. One little girl cried at recess because her boyfriend was dancing with another girl during recess. For those of you who do not know, my daughter is in the first grade. However, tonight it seemed more like she was sixteen. I told Matt I would take her to the winter ball.
We sat down to eat dinner, and Matt and I were watching "Everybody Loves Raymond". Funny thing is, his daughter was invited to a formal dance. Everyone was going, and wearing beautiful formal dresses. Raymond took his daughter dress shopping, and the dress she needed for this formal affair was $250. He decided this was ridiculous, and he was not going to spend this kind of money on a dress for his young daughter to wear to a formal dance. To make a long story short, he feels bad for his daughter and doesn't want her to feel left out, so he goes behind his wife's back and buys the dress for his daughter. It is sweet to see a daughter melt her daddy's heart.
I saw my very own daughter do that to her daddy tonight. We picked a black dress out of her closet, fixed her, applied some glitter, and lip gloss. She was beautiful. Her daddy kept telling her, now I don't want you to dance with any boys. Just go and have fun with your friends. What I can't describe in words is the look on her daddy's face to see his daughter get dressed for her first dance. (we were not expecting this to happen for several more years). But I could see his heart melt as a he hugged his little girl. It was very sweet.
I took my daughter to this winter ball. We have never been before, so I didn't know what to expect. We just put on the prettiest dress in her closet and fixed her all up and off we went. We pulled into the school parking lot, and little girls were getting out in formal dresses, little boys in tuxedo's. That's when my heart melted. I didn't want my little girl to feel like that little girl on Everybody Loves Raymond. But I watched my daughter get out of the truck, and it was as if she didn't see what people were wearing. She was just excited to be there. We walked in and she found her friends. I watched them all dance, found out my daughter knows the mac arena, and just enjoyed being there.
A part of me wanted to cry, but I was so proud of her. Yes, she was beautiful in her very informal dress, but she was even more beautiful with every bit of fun that she had in her informal dress. It didn't matter what she had on, it didn't matter what her friends had on. They all took pictures together, danced together, and just enjoyed being with friends. To me that made her more beautiful than I can even describe to you.
That reminded me how we as Christians are suppose to be. We should never walk in admiring everyone else, or wishing we had what other people had. We should walk in with a good attitude. An attitude of joy, and love we have for each other. We should never be separated by what we wear, what job title we have, our intelligence or lack there of. It didn't matter if Abby's friends were rich, poor, or over weight. All she saw was a group of friends that she wanted to have fun with. The only way we can truly show the love of Christ, is to show our hearts. I am so proud of watching my daughter tonight.

Proverbs Study Week Five

I fell of the wagon. It's time to get back on again. It has been a very hectic weekend. I babysat all weekend long. I want to thank everyone who came to Super Sunday. We had a great time, and lots of food. Unfortunate for the Cardinals fans though. This past week has been a great week with old friends, new friends, and rekindled friendships. I am thankful for all of our friends that God has blessed us with. I hope you guys are keeping warm. I have a quick prayer request: a customer came into the store today, he was an older gentlemen who has to take his wife to Little Rock for surgery. She has a mass in her stomach, and they do not know if it is cancer or not, but his heart was full of worry as he talked about his wife. She has nine siblings and all of them had died of cancer, and he's afraid of losing his wife as well.

Proverbs 10
Pro 10:1 The proverbs of Solomon. A wise son makes a glad father, but a foolish son is a sorrow to his mother.
Pro 10:2 Treasures gained by wickedness do not profit, but righteousness delivers from death.
Pro 10:3 The LORD does not let the righteous go hungry, but he thwarts the craving of the wicked.
Pro 10:4 A slack hand causes poverty, but the hand of the diligent makes rich.
Pro 10:5 He who gathers in summer is a prudent son, but he who sleeps in harvest is a son who brings shame.
Pro 10:6 Blessings are on the head of the righteous, but the mouth of the wicked conceals violence.
Pro 10:7 The memory of the righteous is a blessing, but the name of the wicked will rot.
Pro 10:8 The wise of heart will receive commandments, but a babbling fool will come to ruin.
Pro 10:9 Whoever walks in integrity walks securely, but he who makes his ways crooked will be found out.
Pro 10:10 Whoever winks the eye causes trouble, but a babbling fool will come to ruin.
Pro 10:11 The mouth of the righteous is a fountain of life, but the mouth of the wicked conceals violence.
Pro 10:12 Hatred stirs up strife, but love covers all offenses.
Pro 10:13 On the lips of him who has understanding, wisdom is found, but a rod is for the back of him who lacks sense.
Pro 10:14 The wise lay up knowledge, but the mouth of a fool brings ruin near.
Pro 10:15 A rich man's wealth is his strong city; the poverty of the poor is their ruin.
Pro 10:16 The wage of the righteous leads to life, the gain of the wicked to sin.
Pro 10:17 Whoever heeds instruction is on the path to life, but he who rejects reproof leads others astray.
Pro 10:18 The one who conceals hatred has lying lips, and whoever utters slander is a fool.
Pro 10:19 When words are many, transgression is not lacking, but whoever restrains his lips is prudent.
Pro 10:20 The tongue of the righteous is choice silver; the heart of the wicked is of little worth.
Pro 10:21 The lips of the righteous feed many, but fools die for lack of sense.
Pro 10:22 The blessing of the LORD makes rich, and he adds no sorrow with it.
Pro 10:23 Doing wrong is like a joke to a fool, but wisdom is pleasure to a man of understanding.
Pro 10:24 What the wicked dreads will come upon him, but the desire of the righteous will be granted.
Pro 10:25 When the tempest passes, the wicked is no more, but the righteous is established forever.
Pro 10:26 Like vinegar to the teeth and smoke to the eyes, so is the sluggard to those who send him.
Pro 10:27 The fear of the LORD prolongs life, but the years of the wicked will be short.
Pro 10:28 The hope of the righteous brings joy, but the expectation of the wicked will perish.
Pro 10:29 The way of the LORD is a stronghold to the blameless, but destruction to evildoers.
Pro 10:30 The righteous will never be removed, but the wicked will not dwell in the land.
Pro 10:31 The mouth of the righteous brings forth wisdom, but the perverse tongue will be cut off.
Pro 10:32 The lips of the righteous know what is acceptable, but the mouth of the wicked, what is perverse.

......now go back and mark the words wise, wisdom,and fool. As well as mouth, words, lips, and tongue. The New Testament teaches us much about what comes out of our mouths and how that reveals what is in our hearts.


Now read the chapter again, marking righteous, wicked, life and death

Now list what you learned about the wise, the fool, and the wicked, and the righteous. As you make this list you will see how life, death, and the mouth relate to each group of people.

You may also want to write out the connections between wisdom and the righteous and between foolishness, and the wicked. These connections are important--don't miss them.

The Wise:
A wise son makes a glad father
The wise of heart will receive commandments
On the lips of him who has understanding, wisdom is found
The wise lay up knowledge
but wisdom is pleasure to a man of understanding

The Fool:
but a foolish son is a sorrow to his mother.
but a babbling fool will come to ruin
but a rod is for the back of him who lacks sense.
but the mouth of a fool brings ruin near
and whoever utters slander is a fool
but fools die for lack of sense.
Doing wrong is like a joke to a fool

The Wicked:
Treasures gained by wickedness do not profit
but he thwarts the craving of the wicked.
the mouth of the wicked conceals violence.
the mouth of the wicked conceals violence.
the mouth of the wicked conceals violence.
the gain of the wicked to sin
the heart of the wicked is of little worth.
What the wicked dreads will come upon him
When the tempest passes, the wicked is no more
the years of the wicked will be short
the expectation of the wicked will perish
the wicked will not dwell in the land
the mouth of the wicked, what is perverse.

The Righteous
righteousness delivers from death
he LORD does not let the righteous go hungry
Blessings are on the head of the righteous
The memory of the righteous is a blessing
The mouth of the righteous is a fountain of life,
The tongue of the righteous is choice silver
The lips of the righteous feed many,
the desire of the righteous will be granted
the righteous is established forever
The hope of the righteous brings joy
The righteous will never be removed
The mouth of the righteous brings forth wisdom
The lips of the righteous know what is acceptable

Proverbs Study week 4 day 5

Read Proverbs 9:1-6 List what wisdom has done and the message she calls out.
Pro 9:1 Wisdom has built her house; she has hewn her seven pillars.
Pro 9:2 She has slaughtered her beasts; she has mixed her wine; she has also set her table.
Pro 9:3 She has sent out her young women to call from the highest places in the town,
Pro 9:4 "Whoever is simple, let him turn in here!" To him who lacks sense she says,
Pro 9:5 "Come, eat of my bread and drink of the wine I have mixed.
Pro 9:6 Leave your simple ways, and live, and walk in the way of insight."

Wisom has;
built her house
hewn her seven pillars
slaughtered her beasts
mixed her wine
set her table
sent our her young women to call from the highest places in the town

Wisdom is calling out to the simple, so they can leave their simple ways and gain knowledge and understanding. Even the simplest of people can gain wisdom.


Now read verses 13-18. List what you learn about the woman of folly and her message.
Pro 9:13 The woman Folly is loud; she is seductive and knows nothing.
Pro 9:14 She sits at the door of her house; she takes a seat on the highest places of the town,
Pro 9:15 calling to those who pass by, who are going straight on their way,
Pro 9:16 "Whoever is simple, let him turn in here!" And to him who lacks sense she says,
Pro 9:17 "Stolen water is sweet, and bread eaten in secret is pleasant."
Pro 9:18 But he does not know that the dead are there, that her guests are in the depths of Sheol.

The woman of folly is very seductive and does not have wisdom. She is searching for naive young men without wisdrom and knowledge. She is convincing him that it is good. Only they do not know where what she has done to others who have followed in that same path.


How does the woman of folly relate to the adulteress and harlot we marked before>
She is seductive, and convincing. She preys on the naive and those lacking wisdom and knowledge.

Note the important words in the two invitaions and the different results from listening to these words.
They are both calling out to the simple man. Only one wants to give the simple man knowledge and wisdom. The wants the simple man because he lacks wisdom and that makes it easy for her to seduce him.

Proverbs Study Week Four Days 3 and 4

Send me an email if you want to continue to add a children's devotion. angieduke@hotmail.com. I wasn't sure how many of you reading this needed a kids devotion. The ice is melted. Thank God. I'm glad we were all able to get back to work and school safely. Don't forget about Super Sunday this Sunday at 3pm. Come early to setup, and stay after service for the Super Bowl Party. It is going to be tons of fun.

Day 3 of Week 4
We were suppose to wrap up chapter 8, studying 22-36.We are suppose to compare the relationship between The Lord and Wisdom. As you have seen, true wisdom comes from the lord. The world's wisdom can never compare to the Lords wisdom. Go ahead and write down what you learn from these verses.

Basically the Lord had wisdom from the beginnign of time. In everything he did, he had wisdom.
A quote from Matthew Henry
. An exhortation to hear and obey the voice of Wisdom, to attend and comply with the good instructions that the word of God gives us, and in them to discern the voice of Christ, as the sheep know the shepherd's voice.

We are to hear God's instruction, listen to him, like a kid learning from his parents we are to learn from God. We are not to neglect him. Stop and ask yourself, how am I neglecting God right now? Do I read my bible daily, do I pray, am I spending time with him, am I reaching out to others, am I taking time to teach my children the word of God, am I walking the walk daily? None of us are giving 100% to God. There is always more that we can do, more we need to learn, more people who need us to pray for them and be the light of Christ in their lives.


Day 4 of week 4
Read Proverbs 9 marking wisdom and understanding, and the woman of folly. Watch for pronouns refering to these characters.

Pro 9:1 Wisdom has built her house; she has hewn her seven pillars.
Pro 9:2 She has slaughtered her beasts; she has mixed her wine; she has also set her table.
Pro 9:3 She has sent out her young women to call from the highest places in the town,
Pro 9:4 "Whoever is simple, let him turn in here!" To him who lacks sense she says,
Pro 9:5 "Come, eat of my bread and drink of the wine I have mixed.
Pro 9:6 Leave your simple ways, and live, and walk in the way of insight."
Pro 9:7 Whoever corrects a scoffer gets himself abuse, and he who reproves a wicked man incurs injury.
Pro 9:8 Do not reprove a scoffer, or he will hate you; reprove a wise man, and he will love you.
Pro 9:9 Give instruction to a wise man, and he will be still wiser; teach a righteous man, and he will increase in learning.
Pro 9:10 The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom, and the knowledge of the Holy One is insight. (KJV it says the knowledge of holy is understanding.)
Pro 9:11 For by me your days will be multiplied, and years will be added to your life.
Pro 9:12 If you are wise, you are wise for yourself; if you scoff, you alone will bear it.
Pro 9:13 The woman Folly is loud; she is seductive and knows nothing.
Pro 9:14 She sits at the door of her house; she takes a seat on the highest places of the town,
Pro 9:15 calling to those who pass by, who are going straight on their way,
Pro 9:16 "Whoever is simple, let him turn in here!" And to him who lacks sense she says,
Pro 9:17 "Stolen water is sweet, and bread eaten in secret is pleasant."
Pro 9:18 But he does not know that the dead are there, that her guests are in the depths of Sheol.

That's all we need to do today. Read and mark our bibles. Tommorrow we will study 1-6 and 13-18. Read this a couple of times. Get a good understanding of the verses before we do our study.

Proverbs Study Week Four Day 2 / added kids devotion

I wanted to add a kid devotion to my study. Every night we sit down with our children and do a short devotion. This will take about 5 to 10 minutes of your time with your kids. After your devotion, have your kids pray, then pray over your kids. I always encourage my kids to pray for their friends. We try to add a new prayer request every week.

KIDS STUDY (Searching Deep)

I always have my kids get their bibles out and read the verse. It's typically just 2 or 3 verses. If you have more than one child, try to split it up or take turns. At my house, my kids have two different bible versions, so I have them both read.

VERSE
James 2:23 Abraham...was called God's friend.

Story: Luke burst into the kitchen, opening an envelope. " We got a letter from Miguel!" (ask your kids how they think they would feel to get a letter from their best friend.
His mother smiled. "That's wonderful. What does it say?" Luke's family had decided to sponsor a needy child from another country. They'd agreed to send money each month to an organization call Compassion International. That way, the organization could feed Miguel, help him stay healthy, help educate him, and tell him about Jesus. And the best part was, Luke and Miguel were going to be pen pals!
"There's Miguel's handwriting," Luke said, "but it's in Spanish."
His mom asked, "isn't it translated into English?"
Luke flipped the letter over. "Oh yeah. Here it is." He read it. "WOW. Miguel goes to school like me, and he loves baseball too." Luke lived in Minnesota. Miguel lived in Nicaragua, which was in Central America. Using the internet, Luke and his parents had learned a lot about Nicaragua. Luke wanted to go there someday and meet Miguel in person. Meanwhile, it was cool having a friend in another country. Grabbing a pen, Luke said, "I'm gonna write back and tell Miguel all about me!"

Prayer allows you to be "pen pals" with God. Although you can't see God now, you can build a relationship with him through prayer and reading your bible. And someday, with faith in Jesus, you'll meet Jesus face to face.

Words To TREASURE:
Exodus 33:11 The Lord would speak to Moses face to face, as a man speaks with his friend.

Now for our adult Study Time:

Day TWO
All we need to do today is list the claims wisdom makes in verses 1-21. Take your time and meditate on what you learn in these verses. They're so rich.
Precepts of Wisdom
1. They are proclaimed aloud
2. They are proclaimed from on high
3. They are proclaimed in the places of concourse, where multitudes are gathered together, the more the better.
4. They are proclaimed where they are most needed.
5. They are directed to the children of men.
6. They are designed to make them wise

This is really deep reading. A lot to take in, in a few short verses.

It also says that wisdom is better than jewels and all you desire cannot compare to her. .....That is a pretty strong verse. Take a minute to think about what it really means. I'm sitting here thinking of all the things I desire, I would love to go to Cozumel or Cancun, a house at least twice the size of the one I own, all my bills to be paid off, I could go on forever on this one. It says that all of those cannot compare to wisdom. So what should I truly desire more, all of these wonderful earthly things, or wisdom? Wisdom of Course.

Matthew Henry says that in verses 12-21 wisdom is Christ.

Divine wisdom gives men a level head
It gives men good hearts
It has a good influence on governing affairs
It will make all those happy, truly happy, that receive and embrace it.

That's a lot for today. We will study verse 8 some more tomorrow. There is a lot to embrace, and we have three days to embrace it.

I hope you all are having a good day. Be careful in this nasty weather. Don't drive tonight if you don't have to.

Love In Christ
Angie

Week Four Proverbs Study

Well, we made it through three weeks. Be proud of yourselves. This is isn't as hard to do as I thought it would be. You guys keep me going. We had a great week, prayers have been answered for us this week. My brother is not moving to Tulsa, Yeah. We received our first donation for our mission trip, Yeah. I am finally well. I had a super great feel good day. I am so thankful to be feeling better. I hope you guys have great things going on in your lives as well. Please share them with us if you do. Praise reports are always encouraging.

The Call of Wisdom or of the Foolish Woman....
Food and wine are set at wisdom's table, and she calls men to forsake folly and live. But the foolish woman equally calls men to secretly partake of her stolen water and bread...and then die. Can you distinguish these voices? Will you heed the right call?

Day One of Week Four

Read Proverbs 8 and Mark (wisdom, knowledge, understanding, love, Lord, and blessing)
Take time to underline these in your bible, even though I highlight them in the study.

In this chapter, wisdom is personified, so you'll find many feminie pronouns. Loof for them so you don't miss any significant observations. Personification is a literary device that draws attention to and explains a concept in a way we can relate to. The characteristics of a person are attributed to the concept because we understand how people think and act.

Days 1-3 are focusing solely on Chapter 8. Tomorrow we will pull out some things about wisdom, and Wednesday we will talk about the relationship between the Lord and wisdom. Days 4-6 we will focus on Proverbs 9. Two chapters in 6 days, we can do it.

Pro 8:1 Does not wisdom call? Does not understanding raise her voice?
Pro 8:2 On the heights beside the way, at the crossroads she takes her stand;
Pro 8:3 beside the gates in front of the town, at the entrance of the portals she cries aloud:
Pro 8:4 "To you, O men, I call, and my cry is to the children of man.
Pro 8:5 O simple ones, learn prudence; O fools, learn sense.
Pro 8:6 Hear, for I will speak noble things, and from my lips will come what is right,
Pro 8:7 for my mouth will utter truth; wickedness is an abomination to my lips.
Pro 8:8 All the words of my mouth are righteous; there is nothing twisted or crooked in them.
Pro 8:9 They are all straight to him who understands, and right to those who find knowledge.
Pro 8:10 Take my instruction instead of silver, and knowledge rather than choice gold,
Pro 8:11 for wisdom is better than jewels, and all that you may desire cannot compare with her.
Pro 8:12 "I, wisdom, dwell with prudence, and I find knowledge and discretion.
Pro 8:13 The fear of the LORD is hatred of evil. Pride and arrogance and the way of evil and perverted speech I hate.
Pro 8:14 I have counsel and sound wisdom; I have insight; I have strength.
Pro 8:15 By me kings reign, and rulers decree what is just;
Pro 8:16 by me princes rule, and nobles, all who govern justly.
Pro 8:17 I love those who love me, and those who seek me diligently find me.
Pro 8:18 Riches and honor are with me, enduring wealth and righteousness.
Pro 8:19 My fruit is better than gold, even fine gold, and my yield than choice silver.
Pro 8:20 I walk in the way of righteousness, in the paths of justice,
Pro 8:21 granting an inheritance to those who love me, and filling their treasuries.
Pro 8:22 "The LORD possessed me at the beginning of his work, the first of his acts of old.
Pro 8:23 Ages ago I was set up, at the first, before the beginning of the earth.
Pro 8:24 When there were no depths I was brought forth, when there were no springs abounding with water.
Pro 8:25 Before the mountains had been shaped, before the hills, I was brought forth,
Pro 8:26 before he had made the earth with its fields, or the first of the dust of the world.
Pro 8:27 When he established the heavens, I was there; when he drew a circle on the face of the deep,
Pro 8:28 when he made firm the skies above, when he established the fountains of the deep,
Pro 8:29 when he assigned to the sea its limit, so that the waters might not transgress his command, when he marked out the foundations of the earth,
Pro 8:30 then I was beside him, like a master workman, and I was daily his delight, rejoicing before him always,
Pro 8:31 rejoicing in his inhabited world and delighting in the children of man.
Pro 8:32 "And now, O sons, listen to me: blessed are those who keep my ways.
Pro 8:33 Hear instruction and be wise, and do not neglect it.
Pro 8:34 Blessed is the one who listens to me, watching daily at my gates, waiting beside my doors.
Pro 8:35 For whoever finds me finds life and obtains favor from the LORD,
Pro 8:36 but he who fails to find me injures himself; all who hate me love death."

Day 21 Group Discussion

I am going to post group discussion questions tonight. Find the answers, post them if you like. I will post the group answers tomorrow night after our Fuel Cell. If you would like to come to the group discussion, it will be

Fuel Cell
Sunday Night
6pm
Matt and Angie Duke
104 Cleaver
Pocola
Menu:Homemade Chicken Pot Pie/dessert/salad

Store in your heart:
Proverbs6:16-19
Read and discuss
Proverbs 5:3-6,15-20
6:16-19,23-29
7:6-27

Discuss the central teaching of Proverbs 5-7
The central teaching for these chapters was one to warn against adultery.
2. A parent imparting their wisdom to their kids
3. Chapter 6 had some other general warnings of how not to be as well


What are some of the tactics of the adulteress?
She is alluring, she lies, she seeks eagerly, she dresses to catch the eye, she knows how to persuade young naive boys, she is manipulative, beautiful,

How is a man vulnerable to these tactics?
He is vulberable because he is young and naive and does not have the wisdom to understand to stay away and what will happen if he doesn't.

How does Proverbs 6:16-19 relate to the teaching of the adulteress The things that?
God hates, are the characteristics of an adulteress

Discuss how the commandments of the father and teachings of the mother help a naive young manThis is how our ?children learn right from wrong, they need the strong commands of their father to lead and guide them. They need a father figure to impart their wisdom to them. They need a mother that is strong in the Lord that teach right from wrong as well.


How should we respond to God's instruction in these chapters?
We should listen to Gods instruction and follow it. If we don't we are going to suffer a world of consequences

Verses for thought:
Exo 20:14 "You shall not commit adultery.
Exo 20:17 "You shall not covet your neighbor's house; you shall not covet your neighbor's wife, or his male servant, or his female servant, or his ox, or his donkey, or anything that is your neighbor's."

Wisdom and Understanding can stop us from making these mistakes. It should be our goal to obtain wisdom and understanding to prevent making mistakes, and reaping the consequences thereafter.

Proverbs Study days 19 and 20

We are going to both of these together. Seems to be my norm on Friday and Saturday.

We are going to begin just by reading Proverbs chapter 7.
In your bible mark the words, (my son, adulteress, wisdom, heart, and harlot)
Pro 7:1 My son, keep my words and treasure up my commandments with you;
Pro 7:2 keep my commandments and live; keep my teaching as the apple of your eye;
Pro 7:3 bind them on your fingers; write them on the tablet of your heart.
Pro 7:4 Say to wisdom, "You are my sister," and call insight your intimate friend,
Pro 7:5 to keep you from the forbidden woman, from the adulteress with her smooth words.
Pro 7:6 For at the window of my house I have looked out through my lattice,
Pro 7:7 and I have seen among the simple, I have perceived among the youths, a young man lacking sense,
Pro 7:8 passing along the street near her corner, taking the road to her house
Pro 7:9 in the twilight, in the evening, at the time of night and darkness.
Pro 7:10 And behold, the woman meets him, dressed as a prostitute, wily of heart.
Pro 7:11 She is loud and wayward; her feet do not stay at home;
Pro 7:12 now in the street, now in the market, and at every corner she lies in wait.
Pro 7:13 She seizes him and kisses him, and with bold face she says to him,
Pro 7:14 "I had to offer sacrifices, and today I have paid my vows;
Pro 7:15 so now I have come out to meet you, to seek you eagerly, and I have found you.
Pro 7:16 I have spread my couch with coverings, colored linens from Egyptian linen;
Pro 7:17 I have perfumed my bed with myrrh, aloes, and cinnamon.
Pro 7:18 Come, let us take our fill of love till morning; let us delight ourselves with love.
Pro 7:19 For my husband is not at home; he has gone on a long journey;
Pro 7:20 he took a bag of money with him; at full moon he will come home."
Pro 7:21 With much seductive speech she persuades him; with her smooth talk she compels him.
Pro 7:22 All at once he follows her, as an ox goes to the slaughter, or as a stag is caught fast
Pro 7:23 till an arrow pierces its liver; as a bird rushes into a snare; he does not know that it will cost him his life.
Pro 7:24 And now, O sons, listen to me, and be attentive to the words of my mouth.
Pro 7:25 Let not your heart turn aside to her ways; do not stray into her paths,
Pro 7:26 for many a victim has she laid low, and all her slain are a mighty throng.
Pro 7:27 Her house is the way to Sheol, going down to the chambers of death.


I want to add a few extra verses that will tie into the study.
2Ti 2:22 So flee youthful passions and pursue righteousness, faith, love, and peace, along with those who call on the Lord from a pure heart.

1Pe 2:11 Beloved, I urge you as sojourners and exiles to abstain from the passions of the flesh, which wage war against your soul.

Matthew Henry breaks down the chapter as follows:
In this chapter we have, I. A general exhortation to get our minds principled and governed by the world of God, as a sovereign antidote against this sin (Pro_7:1-5). II. A particular representation of the great danger which unwary young men are in of being inveigled into this snare (v. 6-23). III. A serious caution inferred thence, in the close, to take heed of all approaches towards this sin (Pro_7:24-27). We should all pray, “Lord, lead us not into this temptation.”

Now for my thoughts:
Lets remember that Solomon is still instructing young men against the sins of the flesh. I believe that fleshly lusts is probably one of the biggest sins in the world today. We watch it in on TV, we see it in magazines, product advertisement, the people walking down the street, it surrounds us. We don't even want to get into the billions of dollars made in the Porn industry. We live in a world where girls are getting plastic surgery of all types before they even turn 18. Why do we do those things? So we can be attractive. I would think fleshly lusts are even more so in today's time than it was back then. This is a very important thing to discuss, not only for ourselves, but for our spouses, and for our kids. Kids are sending naked pics of themselves to their boyfriends and girlfriends via the cell phone. When are we going to do what Solomon is doing right now, when are we going to start teaching our kids about the sins of the flesh.

You flirt with sin, and eventually you will give into it. You may think it's OK to go around it, to see what it's like, and eventually that sin will find it's way into your life. Then is starts taunting you, you see it everywhere you go, it looks so inviting. That is when wisdom and understanding comes to play. We have to use wisdom to know what to stay away from.

IN Job 28:28 And he said to man, 'Behold, the fear of the Lord, that is wisdom, and to turn away from evil is understanding.'"

We are going to be enticed, it is the fear of the Lord that keeps us from giving in, and when we turn away from it, then we know we have the understanding in our heart. The understanding that it is wrong, and sometimes, no matter how enticing it may seem, you just have to know that you are suppose to walk away.


For if you fall into the snares of adultery the price you pay will be great.

God is doing awesome things

I'm taking a break tonight. I will post 2 days tomorrow. God has blessed us so much this week, we have had some great answers to prayer. We are planning a mission trip to Massachusetts this summer to help our friends with a church plant. They need help with construction work and other things, and we have been praying about going. Funds are the only set back we have, but we are believing that God is going to provide for us to go. Today we received an email from someone who wants to put some money towards our trip. I wanted to cry. We didn't ask for this money, but God laid it upon some one's heart to give it to us. It just reminded of how big our God is, and we felt as if it was God jump starting that faith inside of us, to start planning this trip and things will fall into place. (Just like Ryan said it would). It really overwhelmed our hearts, that God has provided before we have even started trying to get funding for our trip. I'm really anxious to see how this is going to fall into place, and to watch God work. It put a little fire in me, and today we started planning our trip. I want you to be in prayer for our family, and for Ryan and Christy and the church plant. They live by faith every day of every week.

Another great thing this week, didn't really happen to me, but Cindy called the other night and left a message on my phone about school stuff. After I finished my study I called her back. She answered the phone crying, her mom's feeding tube was clogged and she couldn't get in touch with anyone to get it fixed. They sent her to the pharmacy for stuff to unclog it, but didn't send her with the prescription she needed. She had just finished praying as she was driving back to her mom's to please send an angel to take care of her mom because she no longer knew what to do and then I called. I asked her why she was crying and she explained the story, and I said Cindy I think Matt knows how to do that, do you want us to come over? We went over and Matt had her fixed up in about 5 minutes. Mrs. Sue called Matt one of her many angels. God is always good. God knew what needed to happen, even when we didn't.

What I want to say, God knows all of our needs. When we can't figure it out on our own, and when we just can't think of anyone else to call, God sends someone in our direction. Never doubt what God can do in your life. I know I am not doubting what he can do in ours. I am excited to see how the next few months is going to unfold. I know to do this, I am going to have to completely rely upon God and not me.

I hope you all have a very blessed week. You can start reading Proverbs seven if you like. I will post the study tomorrow. God Bless you all.

Love In Christ
Angie

Proverbs Study Day 18

I have not yet posted the answers for yesterdays study, I wanted to give you guys a chance to try to do the study on your own. I want to welcome Paula and Anna to our Study. Love you guys, and means so much to discuss this with you when we are working.

Today we are to read Proverbs 6:20-35
Marking adulteress, my son, and commandment in our bibles as we go.

Pro 6:20 My son, keep your father's commandment, and forsake not your mother's teaching.
Pro 6:21 Bind them on your heart always; tie them around your neck.
Pro 6:22 When you walk, they will lead you; when you lie down, they will watch over you; and when you awake, they will talk with you.
Pro 6:23 For the commandment is a lamp and the teaching a light, and the reproofs of discipline are the way of life,
Pro 6:24 to preserve you from the evil woman, from the smooth tongue of the adulteress.
Pro 6:25 Do not desire her beauty in your heart, and do not let her capture you with her eyelashes;
Pro 6:26 for the price of a prostitute is only a loaf of bread, but a married woman hunts down a precious life.
Pro 6:27 Can a man carry fire next to his chest and his clothes not be burned?
Pro 6:28 Or can one walk on hot coals and his feet not be scorched?
Pro 6:29 So is he who goes in to his neighbor's wife; none who touches her will go unpunished.
Pro 6:30 People do not despise a thief if he steals to satisfy his appetite when he is hungry,
Pro 6:31 but if he is caught, he will pay sevenfold; he will give all the goods of his house.
Pro 6:32 He who commits adultery lacks sense; he who does it destroys himself.
Pro 6:33 He will get wounds and dishonor, and his disgrace will not be wiped away.
Pro 6:34 For jealousy makes a man furious, and he will not spare when he takes revenge.
Pro 6:35 He will accept no compensation; he will refuse though you multiply gifts.

Get a notebook or a peice of paper and keep up with your study.

What did you learn about the commandment of the father and the teaching of the mother?

What did you learn about the adulteress?

What consequences does a man risk by assoiciating with an adulteress?

Proverbs Study Day 17

I hope everyone enjoyed yesterday's study. It was to study and brought back some cool memories for me. Im babysitting my beautiful 4 month old neice. She is a little fussy tonight, so I'm going to try to get this done the best I can.

Prayer: God as we do our study today, place the words deep in our hearts. Help us to hide the words in our hearts, and to hear what we need to hear. Let us apply it to our lives, and give us wisdom as to when and where we need to use these words in our lives. Thank for this time of study.
Amen.

Today we are Reading Proverbs 6:1-19 (In your bible mark the words: my son, the Lord, and wise.

Pro 6:1 My son, if you have put up security for your neighbor, have given your pledge for a stranger,
Pro 6:2 if you are snared in the words of your mouth, caught in the words of your mouth,
Pro 6:3 then do this, my son, and save yourself, for you have come into the hand of your neighbor: go, hasten, and plead urgently with your neighbor.
Pro 6:4 Give your eyes no sleep and your eyelids no slumber;
Pro 6:5 save yourself like a gazelle from the hand of the hunter, like a bird from the hand of the fowler.
Pro 6:6 Go to the ant, O sluggard; consider her ways, and be wise.
Pro 6:7 Without having any chief, officer, or ruler,
Pro 6:8 she prepares her bread in summer and gathers her food in harvest.
Pro 6:9 How long will you lie there, O sluggard? When will you arise from your sleep?
Pro 6:10 A little sleep, a little slumber, a little folding of the hands to rest,
Pro 6:11 and poverty will come upon you like a robber, and want like an armed man.
Pro 6:12 A worthless person, a wicked man, goes about with crooked speech,
Pro 6:13 winks with his eyes, signals with his feet, points with his finger,
Pro 6:14 with perverted heart devises evil, continually sowing discord;
Pro 6:15 therefore calamity will come upon him suddenly; in a moment he will be broken beyond healing.
Pro 6:16 There are six things that the LORD hates, seven that are an abomination to him:
Pro 6:17 haughty eyes, a lying tongue, and hands that shed innocent blood,
Pro 6:18 a heart that devises wicked plans, feet that make haste to run to evil,
Pro 6:19 a false witness who breathes out lies, and one who sows discord among brothers.

The study says to group the verses by the subjects they cover.

When you are done, pick the verse that spoke to you the most, and write down how you can apply it to your life this week.

I will post my answers in the comment sections below. It may be a few hours before I post them.

Proverbs Study Day 16

(I am using the ESV version)

Read Proverbs 5:15-23 (mark the words adulteress(strange or forbidden woman), the lord, iniquities (sin) in your bible.)Pro 5:15 Drink water from your own cistern, flowing water from your own well.

Pro 5:16 Should your springs be scattered abroad, streams of water in the streets?
Pro 5:17 Let them be for yourself alone, and not for strangers with you.
Pro 5:18 Let your fountain be blessed, and rejoice in the wife of your youth,
Pro 5:19 a lovely deer, a graceful doe. Let her breasts fill you at all times with delight; be intoxicated always in her love.
Pro 5:20 Why should you be intoxicated, my son, with a forbidden woman and embrace the bosom of an adulteress?
Pro 5:21 For a man's ways are before the eyes of the LORD, and he ponders all his paths.
Pro 5:22 The iniquities of the wicked ensnare him, and he is held fast in the cords of his sin.
Pro 5:23 He dies for lack of discipline, and because of his great folly he is led astray.

Also note metaphors about water: cisterns, wells, springs, streams, and fountains. Note the instructions. What principle relates to a wife? How does this contrast with the one that relates to an adulteress?

Be sure to note the destiny (the"end") of the wicked. The wicked and the righteous each have a destiny, and as you might expect, one destiny is unpleasant, and one is pleasant. What evil is discussed in this chapter?

How would you theme Proverbs 5?

After you have done your study, you may go to the comments section to see the answers in which I found in my own study time. Compare them to what you have learned, and feel free to post what you received from today's study. Please Post any prayer requests you may have. This weeks prayer requests are posted on Day 14 of the study, I will update prayer requests as I recieve them. I pray that you all have a great night of rest, and wonderful day tomorrow.

Proverbs Day 15

Week Three
As An Ox Goes
To The Slaughter

Today is only 14 verses, we can do it. God I pray as we do today's study that you open our hearts and minds to hear what we need to hear and to store it in our hearts. Give us wisdom to use the word that you have given us today. We thank you for this day, and thank you for your word. AMEN

Enticed by persuasions, seduced by flattering lips, the young man lacking sense is led away by an adulteress like an ox to the slaughter. He doesn't stand a chance because he didn't treat wisdom as his sister or understanding as his friend.

Read Proverbs 5:1-14 today, marking references to the adulteress in red. Add adulteress to your bookmark. As in past chapters, also mark my son.



Pro 5:1 My son, be attentive to my wisdom; incline your ear to my understanding,
Pro 5:2 that you may keep discretion, and your lips may guard knowledge.
Pro 5:3 For the lips of a forbidden woman drip honey, and her speech is smoother than oil,
Pro 5:4 but in the end she is bitter as wormwood, sharp as a two-edged sword.
Pro 5:5 Her feet go down to death; her steps follow the path to Sheol;
Pro 5:6 she does not ponder the path of life; her ways wander, and she does not know it.
Pro 5:7 And now, O sons, listen to me, and do not depart from the words of my mouth.
Pro 5:8 Keep your way far from her, and do not go near the door of her house,
Pro 5:9 lest you give your honor to others and your years to the merciless,
Pro 5:10 lest strangers take their fill of your strength, and your labors go to the house of a foreigner,
Pro 5:11 and at the end of your life you groan, when your flesh and body are consumed,
Pro 5:12 and you say, "How I hated discipline, and my heart despised reproof!
Pro 5:13 I did not listen to the voice of my teachers or incline my ear to my instructors.
Pro 5:14 I am at the brink of utter ruin in the assembled congregation."

In today's study we are to make a list of we learn about adulteresses. Adultery is the key concept in the ten commandments, in the law, and in the New Testament. A subject that is repeated throughout the Bible is probably a very important topic. Sometimes the Bible sues the word adultery literally, referring to physical, sexual sin. At other times, the Bible uses the word adultery metamorphically and addresses Israel's tendency to worship other gods. which subject is being addressed here in Proverbs?

I think in this passage it is a literal meaning. You may think differently, but lets remember that Solomon is pouring out instruction upon his son. I know that if my son, were older I think my husband would advise him how to treat women. What to do and what not to do, what is expected of him as a christian man. I think you have to be literal when explaining these things. Solomon goes into great detail of how easy it is to fall into this sin, how enticing it can be, so enticing that it may not even seem like a bad thing at the time. But through the instruction of his father it can open his eyes to see something before it happens. Kind of like a Caution Flag, danger head. Making him aware that these things are out there, and it his job to make sure that he stays away from it. If he doesn't listen, then he tells him what will happen if he does. There are no great and little sins, only great and little consequences. This sin carries a some very big consequences.

How do you keep yourself from falling into this sin? being attentive to wisdom, (he says to my wisdom) Incline your ear to my understanding. Basically do what I say.

An Adulteress Description:
Her lips drop honey.
Her mouth is smoother than oil.
In the end she is as bitter as wormwood.
Her feet go down to death.
Her steps take hold of Sheol.


One thing that I got from today's study, is the importance of listening to wisdom. Whether that wisdom come from the bible, or maybe that wisdom comes from some one who has been there and done that and they want to prevent us from doing the same. I think God places those people in our lives to give us instruction, to be our wisdom and our understanding on things we may not yet have wisdom and understanding about. Listen to what God has to say, listen to what your elder's have to say, listen to what your pastor and your Sunday School teacher has to say, these are people of wisdom and understanding that God has place in our lives so that we may understand the wisdom and knowledge they have obtained in their lives.

This is not a Proverbs post

I just want to say how much all of you have encouraged me. Before now, I have not done a good job at doing a daily study. I had felt that God had laid it upon my heart, to blog the daily study that we do in our Sunday Night Fuel Cell. When I first started blogging the study, I thought it would be to help my (as Miranda calls them) cell mates. But it has turned out to help other people in their daily studies. I have had people from church and work come and thank me for posting the study, that it has been encouraging to them to have a daily study to follow. I say that not to boast on myself, because it is totally God that I started posting the study. I thought it would help keep myself accountable to doing a daily study, and I prayed that it may help someone else along the way. As we go forward, I want to encourage you to post comments on the blog explaining what you have learned and how it has touched you, your comments will be beneficial and encouraging in helping others with their study. You don't have to post answers to all of the questions, just post what God has spoke to you through what you have read. Thank you for words of encouragement. I will post day 15 in a few hours. I hope you all have a great day. Remember to post any prayer requests you may have, so we can all pray together. You guys are awesome to study with. As we are learning in Proverbs, obtaining wisdom, knowledge, and understanding, is the key to life and reaching other people. As we gain those things, we will gain rest, and strength, protection, the ability to run and not stumble, and so on. I pray that as we go through this study together, that God will store in hearts what we have learned, and give us wisdom as to when and how to use it.

Love In Christ
Angie Duke

Proverbs Study Day 14

Group Discussion:
On Sunday Nights I try to input every one's quotes during our discussion time. Feel free to add any comments you may have.Store in your hearts: Proverbs 3:5-6
Pro 3:5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.
Pro 3:6 In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.


Read and Discuss: Proverbs 3-4

Questions for discussion or Individual Study

Discuss the father-son relationship implied in Proverbs 3-4.
Chapter 4 is Solomon talking to his son

It is a father talking to his son, teaching him in the ways that are right and wrong.




Does it apply to women too?
Yes we do think it applies to women too. Proverbs 4:3 says that he was the only one in the sight of his mother. However the father is the head of the household and should be the biggest example, we as mother's should be an example and give instruction as well letting the men lead.


What are the benefits of acquiring wisdom?

Benefits of acquiring wisdom is protection, honor, grace, guidance, understanding, long life, your step will not be hampered, when you run you will not stumble, tree of life.

What are the qualities or characteristics of wisdom?more profitable than silver
honor
light
life for your soul



What is the relationship between the son who acquires wisdom and the Lord?
the son will fear the Lord
The Lord will give you confidence and keep your foot from being caught
the son should not despise the Lords discipline or be weary of his reproof.

Contrast the righteous and the wicked.
wicked can't sleep, righteous can sleep with ease
wicked stumbles, righteous does not
wicked will not fear the Lord the righteous will


Summarize the central teachings of these two chapters and discuss how you can remember them.
Its a plee from a father to his son begging him not to make stupid mistakes. Follow my instruction, do not follow the wicked. If you will only follow God and gain wisdom and understanding, your path will be protected.

It's instruction, do you choose to follow it, or do your choose to not to. Either way, we know what happens if we follow either road. We are given the choice, God wants us to choose wisdom and understanding, but the ways of the wicked of there to persuade us as well.

I need the daily getting before God to get understanding and wisdom.

Picturing a Father with his son on his lap, giving him wisdom. The last few verses of chapter three saying don't pass up a moment, don't tell them to come back later i will talk to you tomorrow, do it now. It's what being a good Father is about. A picture perfect relationship between a father and son.

Prayer Requests:
Max and Lucia Harris (strength, rest, and healing)
Randy and Angie (healing, and pray for stability in his job)
Matt Yakel (sick)
Angie, Matt, and Zach Duke (sick,Angie has fluid on her ears)
Ryan and Christy McCullah (finances, and church planting)
Isaac and Melissa Schoeppey (sick)
Miranda Scott and Melissa Schoeppey(a job)
David Erwin,Angie's brother (moving to Tulsa, get back into church)
Danny Erwin, Angie's brother and family (get back into Church)
Matt and Angie Duke(Finances to go to Massachusetts for a week to help with church plant)
Cindy Grizzles Mom: Sue Earls

Ben's Request: prayer for Lindsey,former leader at 180 having seizures and medical problems.

Ben's youth pastor and his wife had a baby boy that has a medical problem. Tests are being run to determine illness. Baby is one month old his name is Elijah Mayo.

Boy in Melissa's class his mom has a fungus in her lungs and may not make it,the boy needs prayer and has asthma problem, now attending Ft Smith schools.